Notes for IGNITE – INSPIRATION
I am an installation artist, painter and photographer and this is my work you are seeing. I make work that is both site specific and site responsive. Site responsive means I consider all possibilities of human presence on an arc of past, present, and future. I respond by interpreting my experience of that space and altering reality just a tiny bit. Site Specific means that this response to a site will only exist in this moment. It cannot be mimicked in any other situation without altering the function of the work.
So, what does all that have to do with quantum physics and time? Everything, in a way. The cosmos INSPIRES me. The universe is SO big. It is scary. It is dangerous and unforgiving. And more beautiful than anything I could ever produce. My initial response to the Millspace spoke to me from a particle point of view and my sense of entanglement was strong.
Astro physics is a dirty little secret that I do not keep. Sometimes my inner world feels dangerous and unforgiving, like a dark universe, and physics gives me comfort and structure. Once you start to examine the cosmos, you must be willing to suspend yourself to embrace a larger picture.
Quantum physics describes the actions of the smallest pieces of the universe; particles which exist in a realm of probabilities. Quantum math is not concerned with whether events occur or do not occur. The math is a language for calculating the possibility of an unpredictable event. Quantum entanglement describes the equal actions 2 or more seemingly unconnected particles. These relationships can happen from vast distances, as in from across the universe. One particle cannot be altered without affecting the other.
Einstein’s Relativity deals with the largest bodies of the universe. The math is predictable and adheres to Earth logic but describes events no less magical than the wonder of chaos. These two disciplines together are the ‘Theory of Everything’. Art is also the Theory of Everything; adhering to Earth logic while succumbing to influences far beyond the logical.
In 2014, Brian Green said to Alan Alda, “The goal of science is to describe and define the deepest patterns in nature.” This sounds like the meaning of art … to describe and define the deepest patterns in nature.” Perception is everything in art. In science, the term is relative. We perceive something because we use our senses and collective knowledge to understand things about the world. But Art is not stable and suitable identifications shift, remaining elusive.
Art making, in all its forms, looks to answer questions of reality, validity, and humanity, just as science does, but remains powerless to resolve the inequities. There is never more than a moment when imagination, invention, and implication are revealed with certainty or permanence. This is the beauty of Quantum physics and its platform of unpredictability.
TIME is relative. It is SO relative, in fact, that there is evidence to suggest all sense of time is completely subjective and each experience of time is wholly unique to one’s perspective or position in space. When a piece of art is made, it can time travel, against relative logic, becoming entangled with other planes of being. I see history and I am sensitive to other occurrences connecting from another time. I experience a site without becoming entangled in a web of other constructs outside of my time.
It is the unpredictability of quantum mechanics which INSPIRES me to examine the capricious connections in art. The observations of the scientist affects the observable actions of the particles. The same is true for the art viewer who changes meaning simply by witnessing the art, unintentionally inventing a new interpretation. As the artist, I maintain my original bond to my work, but I cannot control, nor predict, the ways a viewer will alter my art with their own perspective.
We expect art to rationalize elusive feelings not easily explained. We expect science to be rigid and logical, coming to the rescue when our senses fail us. The truth is that we need it all… we crave logic, predictability and meaningfulness. We also need unpredictability and a little bit of danger to feel alive, all pursuit of satisfactory answers.
I am really looking forward to all the activities and events coming up during my year as Artist Laureate at the Millspace in Newmarket, NH. Space and Time always inspire my creative flow and this place has it all!
During the annual event, IGNITE, I had the opportunity to stretch my boundaries and comfort by speaking about a topic that really speaks to me. Astro physics is a fun-time hobby and I enjoy learning about the basics while finding ways to apply what I learn to my art making.
There was so much warmth and support from all the speakers, the audience, and of course the wonderful souls who make the MIllspace what it is, and what it will become as the center grows.
It was a great night and there will be many more events to explore community at the Millspace in Newmarket.
It has been a while since I last made an entry and it's because sometimes I am lazy about logging in and jotting down my thoughts.
But I've been reading my (one of many) cousin's blog and it reminded me of my own space that I had carved out to use as a soap box. This one titled 'but i AM a real women' was originally set up as a place to discuss my role and relationship in/to society as a woman artist and what that means to me. But now I realize that my 'femaleness' extends beyond my artistic practices.
Of course in the great (and mangled here) words of Mierle Ukeles, she says that she is a woman, a wife, a mother and an artist. And due to constraints in time and life, and the demands that every single sector place on her, that she could not maintain her art and career while maintaining her family. So to satisfy her need to create and her duties to her family, she found that she must combine art and family practices so that she might be fulfilled and fulfilling.
Clever girl. Giving her self permission to LIVE. AND to be a real WOMAN all the while. Because real women know that you can only do what you can, and that there should not be shame, guilt, or expectations that lace those decisions with derision from society because we have not done enough. Enough is always enough. Or, what we can each manage individually should be enough for those around us.
And anyone who thinks raising a family does not require the same (if not more) endurance, creativity, patience, and self-love as in making art, well then their opinions are not ones I find worth entertaining.
And as many of the greatest and most successful female (and feminist) artists have been pointing out, especially in recent years- we CAN'T have it all. But we can all have what we need and more. We can all have more than enough.
And that should be enough for the rest of you.
(originally posted 6/10/10)
My intermittent, but consistent, contemplation of the elephant in the room continues. As I keep searching for ideas about where the elephants reside, I thought that maybe they are personal demons. But now I am wondering if they are the things we don't acknowledge publicly, but that others will gladly acknowledge behind our backs.
I spent the weekend doing various neighborly activities, such as participating in a multi-home yard sale and watching football. Throughout encountering various familiar faces and quasi-acquaintances, I also began to learn incredibly intimate details about their lives, and not from them.
I stumbled into the murky political waters of social positioning, which grows more complicated because it exists on either side of our house, across the street and down the road. It is a realm of who knows whom, who has what, and how many iterations and generations live on the block. I can only imagine what they are saying about me. And in fact, where is this information leak coming from?
Among tid-bits and pieces learned, I heard about various crimes, substance abuses, and other degrees of personal judgement. All stuff I did not need to know, and things I am certain would be considered hurtful to the owners of said gossip, but stuff that was gleefully passed to me, a new-comer who has only resided here for three years.
So what I am wondering is, is it safe to say that the elephant might be things that we won't acknowledge within our personal environs, but things which become owned and discussed inappropriately in the public realm? Posted by HC Park
Someone told me not too long ago that blogging was a good idea. I am dubious, but now that I have more time on my hands, I figure it can't do too much harm. Herein lays the challenge in relying on conventional representations to express ideas. We must all agree on what that initial information must be. So my challenge becomes how do I make succinct little expressions that are accurate and read conclusively to the ideas I want to express?
Sketchbooks are usually visual diaries. Journals for brainstorming, experimenting and developing our thoughts and methods with the end goal being some other project or final piece. I had an art teacher in high school (I cannot remember which one but probably Mrs. Freger) who cautioned us from becoming too attached to the pages of our sketch books. I used to draw very precisely and carefully, always only on one side of each page, rendering still lives and the human figure meticulously. I was so proud of this hard bound book, but when I showed my teacher, she criticized the scores of blank pages and the overly rendered objects within. The ego blows came early, and never seem to cease but I can usually look back to find the lesson inherent in each ache.
In this case, it was a caution to not take myself, or my sketchbook, too seriously. The danger in this being that potential trap of getting stuck between two pages with no room to move. Not to mention, if I can't get off the pages of a book and into a larger space, I will not have the space to grow.
Now I tend not to keep sketchbooks as a general practice any more. Depending on what medium I am working in, I will sketch directly onto the canvas, make a sequence of images until it is right or work in multiple layers. This is a form of journaling I suppose, but I might benefit from rediscovering the practice of keeping a bound space to jot down ideas without being forced to commit to the project before I know what it is, or else covering all the tracks of my process.
(originally posted 9/6/09)